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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Woa, life officially suckzz man. bro had tuition tdae, and tuition tchr wanted to see my math paper 2. I should nt have gave it to her la, she started going on and on about how many mistakes I made, as if I dint know, wtf. I do not need demoralizing right at the heart of post exam mode, bloody fucker. Oh yes I happen to know my mistakes, cant I just have a few happy days before I get back my results? So she went on, even counting the marks she suspected I lost, and they totaled up to 28 bloody marks on paper 2 alone, thanks asshole. So my mum got into results mode too, and started predicting failures for all my subjects. Whatever.

School sucks. No teachers are bothering with the dots connection people, so we sat in 4e1 classroom stoning and/or talking. Tell me, how fun is that? Elected EXCO people. Rebecca Yip, Shirleen Toh, Samantha Gunawan, Euphoria, Victoria, Gen, Jane and Leeanne. The voting was a bit of a disaster, people nominated themselves, how lame is that I ask you? People like vivien, stasha and lucia protested, I was strongly against you-guess-who too, but I was just sitting there being neutral, could have won an oscar for controlling my emotions, LOL. Im in WELFARE :DD Could choose from Logistics, Games, Food and Welfare. Confirmed positions tmr, mrs khor and ms lee going over them. At least tshirt colour was okay. Black and green, but dont ever mention the design.

Bathing was a disaster too, all thanks to a bloody gash on my left leg from falling on beam. And when I say bloody I mean it literally. Gym was horrible, laoshi was going on and on about me skipping 5 lessons, big deal. Get this straight, I was having exams, not fucking playing. Attempted a switch leap cum split jump on the beam, got a nice wound instead. It is fully visible, with a prominent plaster cum cross on it, throbs whenever I move my leg, how perfect.

Thurs is going to be emotionally and mentally trying, getting back results for eoys, so 2 more days of being high. I have no idea how im going to get through the weekend with my parents buzzing at my ears over my results. They seem to think I dont feel bad everytime I do badly, which is so untrue. God, save me, seriously.

Was just playing with photoshop, the functions are super varied (: found out can change normal photos into neoprints :DD does anyone want me to do up their photos? (: blah, still have some leftover homework to do, supposed to be totally free after eoys larhzz pls.

2 more days of holidays to go until my results arrive, im itching to get out of the house and do some shopping, does anyone want to join me?? Thanks to my big fat bro who is still having exams, my whole family has to stay indoors to aid his study, leaving me all bored with nothing to do. I even have to go into the room to watch tv while he is studying outside, and mind you, im not complaining a shit. My wallet is bursting, having saved up for about 4 months for god knows what, maybe I should just go and get what I want on impulse (:

Laptop is screwed, battery darn flat thanks to watching princess hours on youtube, and im lazy to charge it. Anw, the neighbor at the next block has got nothing better to do, quarreling at the top of his voice with his family members and throwing stuff around. Twice in a week, and making such a racket that everyone from 2 blocks away stick their heads out to look.

Oh yea, I have started to notice people more than usual after eoys, bored what. And I have got interesting findings (: first, the neighbour thing, second, theres a guy from the next block who sticks his entire head out of his window in the morning while BRUSHING HIS TEETH. How disgusting can Singaporeans get? Imagine someones toothpaste dropping on your head early in the morning. Splat! Okay, maybe I notice too much (: third, this CNA reporter is kinda cute :D

Sun was trip to j8 with family again. Walked around popular, I saw a book that I liked v v much until I saw its cost ): its about the history of china, and its super interesting (: and the sequel to the all american girl came out alr, im going to get that book soon, way no 1 to spend my money on, im so glad (: lunched at some Chinese restaurant, damn ex ): then went bishan library. After that went home, and within the course of a few hours I finished reading 4 books. Until my head went all dreamy and I went abit blur, the after effects of over reading ):

Yestd. SCGS was collecting newspapers at my house area, and I opened the door to find my own cousin outside. Can you believe it, it was so retarded. She was standing there, and instead of saying do you have newspapers, she was saying omg hello! Then she was like, I have come to visit you, then I was like, I should say you are more interested in the newspapers. It was super coincindental, and damn retard. Anw we chatted for a while, and her ahem was there I think. Cath high guy. Then we said bye and she went off.

My mother is telling me how much people suck at his moment, why is she even telling me about her own private affairs larhs, goodness. I conclude, it’s the menopausal mummy dearest again.

My bro is not even studying, the last time I checked on him, he was PACKING his study table, what an ass. I don know how he can not study and still pass his freaking exams, while I study like shit and score damn low, wtf.

What the fuck, my mother has graduated to digging up my past mistakes and lecturing me now. Pls la, who wants to be reminded of silly stuff like getting punished by the tchr for talking in class in pri 4? Its bad enough listening to her personal affairs, she shld at least thank me for being a listening ear, not rant and rave. hmph.

Shit man. I have just heard that one of my cousins is getting married in like, 3 weeks time? And its at some hotel near united square. Plus im invited, together with my mother. Ok. Last year was bad enough, attending cousin ailin’s wedding. Not to mention that I have to wear a freaking dress and behave in a proper ladylike way. I don mind the dress part, but the behaving part, I swear, can kill. And I have to be ladylike etc for like the WHOLE night. And the best part is, I don even know this cousin remotely well. Yea, so I basically go there and eat like a pig. I tell you, weddings are nice, but having people like your relatives watching your every move can be draining. Esp when they are gonna take into account whatever you do and gossip over it for the next few weeks. Oh my god, now my father is suggesting that me and my mother go get new dresses for the wedding. Whoa, some king getting married is it?

Sorry, perfect holiday mood was dampened by some big shot wedding, a black faced laoshi, an insensitive brother, mother, tutor and boring school life, how charming.

Aplenty of surveys to do, just did a personality one in school tdae, going to edulearn to do the school one now. Am in a mood to LIE outright in the survey, am dangerous when in a foul mood, toodles (:

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9:03 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

EOYS HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED ON THURS!!!!

Im quite sad, actually, that theres no more haze. The grayish mist makes the buildings next to my block heavenly and ethereal, HAHA. but its unhealthy, and the PSI skyrocketed to 150 at its peak on sat. Anw, theres also this canteen-sickness cum gastric flu thing going around hitting schools, so now Im afraid to eat the canteen food, HAHA. but the moral of the story is actually to take v v good care of oneself (:

Vivo city opened last sat I think, part of me is keen to go there but the other part of me doesn’t really like it cos the shops there sell really expensive stuffs like mango, zara clothes etc. THEY COST A BOMB MAN.

Anw, KOREAN fever is hitting me!!! Im so in love with princess hours, it’s the best best Korean drama that I have watched so far, apart from jewel in the palace, and I can confidently say that it is really watchable!!!! Im now currently at episode 20 on youtube, but im watching it all over again on channel u at 7pm. addict right? HAHA. Oh ya the new channel 8 at 7pm show is kinda nice, together with achar, charmed, so you think you can dance 2, greys anatomy etc. mix all that togther, and my whole day is booked by the tv (:

Thurs was trip to j8 and bishan library with chewlin, Christmas, Nathalie, jazz, cz and grace. Sarah was supposed to come but she stayed in school la, that retard. We were all outside the school gate, and were thinking of the many ways that we can go to bishan library. 165 or 855 and change 52 or 156 at macritchie, 153 and change to mrt at tp mrt station, or 93 and walk longlong way. We ended up taking 165 and changing to 52, and the 52 went a whole big fat round around the cath high area before we dropped outside j8. I could think of a more time saving way, but dint want to spoil the mood (:

Christmas was actually with sarah in school, we the evil peoples left her there and took 165. then it turned out that sarah dint want to go, so she took 855 and met us at macritchie. Bus ride on 52 was funny, we resorted to lies to persuade sarah to come, but she dint, that wet blanket (: at j8 we went to kfc to have lunch, I ate my ham and cheese sandwich which was supposedly meant for recess (: cz and I walked around, but nothing much, although I wanted THAT so BADLY. Christmas met her cousin Brinda from Anderson sec there. Then she saw her aunty too (: eh. Brinda look so mature. I thought she was sec 3, then she said she in sec 1. Oops.Trip to bishan library after lunch, was humorous and ultra sick, LOL.

I borrowed 2 dance books, although they brought back my pain of not being able to learn ballet, my perfect mood was not dampened (: I shall try to persuade my parents to let me learn ballet, have been going on and on for about 2 years alr, but they STILL haven’t let me do so ): anw. At about 3 we left bishan library, then we felt it was a waste going home so early, but majority dint want to take neoprints, so we all went home. Trip was fun, and rejuvenating. Eyecandy until got eye diabetes already, LOL.

Oh yea beginning of this week Sarah and cz were sick, sarah had gastric and cz, flu, so add together gastric flu (: the school was darn worried, they sent ms wee to take sarah and cz to the nearby clinic for checkup, and refused to let them consume canteen food (: mrs koh is on maternity leave, so is mrs kwok, but mrs kwok came back to school (:

My immunity system has gone down for god knows what reasons, the flu dragged for about a few weeks, grr. Somemore I was having cramps , then late I night I was sniffing like mad while menstrual cramps wracked my body, resulting in the loss of precious study time ): I don know why, my whole entire body is messed up cos of exams. But I actually like the feeling of being stressed and pressurized, now I feel weird having so much freedom.

Eoys. It was, on the whole, average. Some good, some bad. I did study abit for hcl and eng, letter writing what. Math, ih and science were the three that I mugged and studied intensively for, in contrast, I dint study at all for home econs and lit. English was gold except for the summary, ih was good, though I think my answers were too lengthy and might be out of point. I wrote 7 pages for 3 questions, can anyone beat that? And my wrist was practically dropping off at the end of the paper, I wrote like non stop for that 2 hr 15 mins, how draining is that?

Lit is considered good, my answers were okay, 6 pages for 3 essays, my first essay on animal farm was super heart warming, LOL. And I started with unseen first, it wasnt so bad. Math paper one was alright, I managed to finish. However paper 2 was screwed, I dint finish and dint know how to do, and left so many questions blank, my A1 is gone for sure. Hell, I want to take amath next year, mr tan says an A1 is required, HOW? HOW? I hope they moderate the paper, cos many people did not finish. Oh and I drew a graph in 10 minutes, the last 10 minutes, in fact. And the curve was not so bad, it was actually nice (:

Home econs was okay I guess, I always score 60 plus so I study or not also don make a difference (: sci was abit screwed, I dint know how to draw the light rays and my calculation for electricity was also screwed, in general, physics screwed, but my sexual repro and chemical changes were gold, so I guess im not gonna fail for once (:

Wed was studying at carpark area, when ms b lim and ms chan walked past, and talked to krystle foo and Elaine. Actually I wasnt studying, since nothing about lit went into my head, so I was looking around and having spasms because the madwoman was there. So I was looking around, then I saw ms b lim drop smth. I do not know what led me to RAISE MY HAND, scream her name, and go ’ms lim! You dropped smth!’ Honestly, it was so malu, people from 5m away turned to stare at ME. I bet the madwoman was laughing at me la. Ms lim turned around and retrieved her thing, then thanked me (: she was mentioning apathy, LOL. Think dot lesson, HAHA.

Ohoh. Lit test. My prediction came true. I failed it by a measly ONE MARK. 9/20. I was mentally prepared for it, but was still shocked. First time failing a lit test. At this rate, I think I will be doing geog next year, which I clearly DO NOT want. Geog is not my thing. Elect lit is what I want (:

6 days before the option form is due, peoples, please advice me on what to take!!! I heard that physics is really useful, since if u take phy is sec school, u get to take phy in jc. But if you take bio, you cant take phy in jc cos it hard to catch up. I really don know, serious advice needed!! Anw. The jc syllabus has changed. Sort of. They are offering eng as an alevel subject, makes me really want to go jc cos I want to take eng.

I suspect I lost weight during the course of the exam period, LOL. But seriously, I was mugging most of the time, therefore ate lesser. I need to store up on potato crisps, ice cream and chocs for the holidays, I don care how fat I get, I must make up for all the foods not eaten during eoys (: and satisfy my craving for the irresistible cheesecake and choc bars :D

It has been confirmed. My dad is setting off to Doha for the Asian games on 27 Nov. The flight is early in the morning at six. Oh man then I have to wake up super early larhs. But I don mind. Daddy is worth it (: oh yea. Im trying to persuade him to get me a nice belated birthday present from doha. It would be nice to have smth from there (: but I know he is there for work, so I shant be disappointed if he dusen do so (:

The international salsa festival 2006 will be here tdae and sun, but my parents arent letting me go. Part of it is the cost, the other part is that they think salsa is too sexy a dance for a lil girl like me to learn. SEE WHAT I TOLD YOU? The only chance to me to learn salsa is thru post exam activities. Now I have NO chance at all. Grr. Anws im looking for a nice blogskin, preferably green with dance elements in it, so if any of you see smth nice, pls tell me!!!

Yest was marking day, therefore no school (: no school on mon too, marking day as well. woke up damn early, cos was looking forward to outing with sl and peoples. Afternoon after lunch with parents at mayflower sec that area, met up with xiyun and peiyun at j8, then walked about. After a short while, we went into the mrt station. Met up with sl, cousin kahwei, kahwei’s friend benedict, and sl’s rugby mate. Eh. Sl was very shuai! Very long nvr see him alr. He wore pe shirt and uniform trousers, then his hair very messy (: we were making a lot of noise in the mrt, talking and laughing, luckily no one stared or complained about us. I guess they understood we were letting out exam steam (: got down at orchard, went wisma. We could not decide on where to go, so we decided to split up. Sl and I were immersed in our conversation, so we decided to walk around together. We were doing some much needed catching up on normal stuff like school, and were cracking jokes and laughing like mad practically all the way. Time past very fast, then it was time to meet xiyun and kahwei they all at the level 1, so we made our way there. On the way, I think I saw the back of MRS KHOR!! I was like, omg damn shit fuck, she surely recgonise me one, then I went as far away from sl as possible. Dunno whether she saw, but then standing side by side with a guy on the escalator doesn’t mean anything what. Or does it? did she see that? If she did, im doomed for sure. DOOMED. Anw. Sl and I met up and went level 1, xiyun was grinning at me, that freak. But dunno why after that I suddenly became very shy. Was v quiet all throughout the remaining of the wisma trip, and the brief trip to ps, xiyun thought I kena gastric flu eh:/ yea, was quiet during the return journey to bishan too, so quiet until everyone looked at me strangely. Am I that noisy normally? Then alighted at bishan with xiyun,
peiyun, sl and sl rugby mate. Went j8 again though I was feeling rather lethargic. Walked around again, sl and sl rugby mate went macs to get fries, we waited outside for them. Oh. Peiyun spilled out that she liked sl rugby mate (: so im not mentioning his name (: then decided to go home, said nice goodbyes to all of them. Sla and sl rugby mate taking bus, peiyun and xiyun cabbed home. Yea, so I walked home (: then halfway through started smiling for god knows what reasons, end up everyone give me weird looks:/

YESTD WAS FUN. WEIRD. NICE. FUNNY. WEIRD!!!

Tdae morning. Woke up later than usual. Slacked like hell. Went j8 with parents. Walked arnd seiyu. Went deli and bought baguettes. Then left. Lunched and went home. Gym postponed. From 3 to 7. I wanna watch movie. But they are all NC 16. The banquet, you, me and Dupree etc. NOT FAIR!!!

fantasised at
1:43 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Blah, took me so long to convince my dad to let me use the computer cos he was insisting that I study. Oh man im sick of mugging la, blogging helps, momentarily, to alleviate the boredom and tiredness (:

My lit and math tests are screwed, was like only halfway through lit pls, and about three quarters of that are crap, so im predicting a failure. Ugh. Math test was a plain loss of 4 marks, wth. I calculated the volume of cylinder wrongly, can you believe? Im so fed up with myself. 19 ppl got full marks. Its that easy pls.

How retarded. Cath high has e-learning too, and my bro is so hyped up about it, how lame. And im so looking forward to thurs, when I can finally watch graces vcd and princess hours without having to hear nagging every five mins. Oh yea, im pretty hooked onto princess hours on youtube, its such a touching and hilarious drama with the right amt of fantasy to ignite my dreams, LOL. But really, its nice to dream now and then, to know that each one of us can become a princess.

Thurs was weird. While sitting at carpark area with sarah during recess, - came with her friend. They were telling sarah to go with them, and sarah agreed. I was just thinking, yea ok snr what, no harm. Baby and bala came upon seeing sarah go off with -, and started interrogating me cos the bunch was actually not straight. I was like, yea I know – is not straight, but dusen mean anything what. Then sarah came back, with a box of chocs in her hand. The girl HAD GIVEN IT to her. Baby, bala and dhanya were like, sarah had just accepted her love. So sarah was debating whether to give it back to her or not, then she decided not to and distributed the chocs around back in cls. Weird luh. Damn weird.

Hcl eoy was total crap, it was horrible. Both paper one and two are all so screwed, it was damn difficult la, wth. But mr lim haha was funny, having him invigilating is hilarious, he spoke broken Chinese and wrote cursive Chinese words on the board, LOL. After hcl ended it was alr 1.10, and we were supposed to have revision phy lessons with ms m tan at 1.45. however, Christmas, chewlin, cz, dhanya, akshaya and me still decided to go to island creamery. Dhanya was nice, she treated me and christmas to banana split. Cookies and cream<33 aksh was comical eh, she laughed and the whole scoop of ice cream fell out. HAHAHA. we were all laughing madly, and wanted to get a cup for aksh but the guy say cnt. KILLJOY luh. We ended up 10 mins late for ms tans lesson, and im ever so grateful that she dint scold me or whatsoever. Lsn was horrendous, am still having major problems with phy, I doubt I can pass that component in eoy, omfg. Im going to have to do v v well for my chem and bio component to secure a pass, how despo can I get?

have not gone for gym for 2 lessons alr, not intending to go for the next two either. SO THERE. But I will be back to normal training by next Saturday, really intending to put in effort since eoys will be over by then. I dont think im going to pursue gym any furthur than 16, because no matter how hard I work, I know will never, never go into the nat team. I have little experiences, little agility and am too old. Ok, I used to mourn, but yea, I have accepted my fate now. There might still be a chance for me to join gym as a cca in JC, but its a v slim one. So…yea.
Saw this 165 guy again, the tall one in white and blue uniform with the trousers lowlow. HAHAHA. he’s kinda hot eh.

Blah. Theres another article about salsa fever AGAIN. Ugh, they don have to rub it in right? And the post exam activities list is out. many many are doing salsa. I want to forget; but I cant. Im supposedly given the chance to serve the entire sec2 cohort, so maybe I shld be thankful and happy instead. But I don know how.

Theres currently two fucking big mouth ulcers in my mouth, they throb with pain everytime I talk or eat, which is just irritating and annoying.

Gtg now. Wth, 2 papers each on tues, wed and thurs. but after 12pm on thurs I will be FREE of ALL academic stuffs. Eagerly awaiting it. Off to mug. CHEERS

And its so hazy out there. Weird smell too. Only one more day left to mug, OH GOD!!
I WANT TO DO WELL. AND I WILL.

fantasised at
4:00 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Finally decided to go for the sec3 camp thing. it better be good la, im like missing salsa just for it okay. I antagonized over it for like two bloody long days. Wth la, it killed zillions of my brain cells pls. Not to mention that my heart has gone so dismayed. And the stupid papers kept mentioning salsa fever.

The teachers shouldnt dump this stuff onto us RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of eoys pls, its so distracting. I went around with a headache on fri la. so you see how much I love salsa? It has been my wish for like God knows how many years already. Wasting my energy getting so hyped up about buffet spread.

But looking on the bright side, its kinda good to be able to miss cca stuffs and whatnot. Not that I don’t like cca, but cos it’s a tad weird to have cca in holiday mood. HAHA. and yea, to have teachers trusting you etc is a great boost to self-esteem, hoho.

But cracks are alr starting to show.
1. People think I applied for it. (ugh, would I forfeit my ONCE IN A LIFETIME chance to learn salsa for that?? Only the prospects of speaking to the tchrs led me to go for it. Aiya going to seniors cls alr makes me so scared, I wont even want to speak to tchrs man.)
2. I hv to work with ppl I don particularly like.
Ok, so basically these are the cracks.

Was so looking forward to tennis today, then the stupid sky had to rain la, wth. So we ended up playing the silent game and husband and wife in the space. It was fun, though not as fun as tennis:/ ms wee dint come for hcl lesson today, was busy with going through of o level prelim paper. So she gave me the visualizer and the test papers, to give out and tell them to count their marks etc. it was horror pls, the visualizer dint work cos got one missing wire, how lame is that, so cz and I ran down to 4e5 to look for ms wee. Then I knock on door, and ms wee went, why? Then obviously I say that the visualizer got missing wire, and the whole sec 4 cls started laughing. Gosh la, so malu. Then ms wee gave me some markers, and told me to WRITE EVERYTHING down on the board for them to copy. So by the end of the lsn I had practically memorized the whole answer key alr. Its COMPREHENSION somemore, so I guess her 2 markers all ran out of ink liao, LOL.

Got back test results. 34 and a half over 50 for hcl, quite okay la. home econs got 33 over 40, good considering that I never do 3 questions. then SURPRISE. My CA2 overall science marks went UP from an F9 to an A2. 70.8. so HAPPY pls. Now MUST study for science eoy alr, got extra motivation. HAHA.

Im scared for my Chinese, what if I don’t do well in my Os?? Then according to ms wee, hcl O level is supposedly super diff to get an A2. then sec3 I guess there would nt be any post exam activities for my Chinese cls, cos I think got some kind of Chinese intensive, oh my God. I MUST DO WELL. I MUST.

And I have realized that im hundred percent committed to my studies, LOL. Have been mugging like hell. Cos I need the eoy marks to pull up my present marks, which sucks like hell.

A few Saturdays ago, went j8 for lunch at long john. There was this group of rjc gym guys in long john, and they freaked me out. Can you imagine, 5 or 6 of super muscular guys staring at you? I could, like, literally feel their eyes on me. I walked out and they followed me. So I quickly walked off. HAHA. At night went for dinner at amk. The amk sec area. Then I saw this sir. WEARING A RED CROSS SHIRT. SITTING OPP ME. It was MR VAMPIRE, LOL. Then he kept staring at me. Cos apparently mr vampire met me at fa comp and evac bronze before. Then my mother went, ‘eh your red cross. Sir, sir, sir.’ Like some retard eh. I think mr vampire heard it la, wth. Somemore I DINT GREET HIM, can you believe it, was too scared to do so.

Lsns are so boring nowadays, but im sitting right in front (first row eh), smack at the side of the tchrs table, so cant sleep. Index order what. Tmr is the worst. Ms kaur not coming, so 1 and a half hrs of free period. Then sci ms m tan will come in, argh, boring. Math and lit all got test, even worse. BUT IM PREPARED. Haha.

Still havent get the shoe padding yet, wth, laoshi wants us all to wear it nxt thurs. it may seem a long way off but I don see myself stepping out of the house anytime during eoys. And its supposed to have been brought long ago, as far as 3 weeks back, so we can practice in it.

But WHO CARES, im off to mug. RAHH-

fantasised at
5:33 PM

Monday, October 02, 2006

lazy to update. may do so tmr? GYS ppl SUCK. wats wrong with them eh?? im never gonna take that route home alr. GUESS WHAT. 3 FREAKING GUYS CAME TO ASK ME FOR MY NUMBER. WTH LA, CANT THEY JUST GO AND DIE???

a funny thing - i've just learnt that in the past women STARCH their gowns to make their butts stick out. HAHAHA. their body looks DISTORTED eh. HAHAHA.

SL<33
loadsoflove.neverforgetthis.

fantasised at
2:18 PM