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Sunday, November 26, 2006
fantasised at Friday, November 24, 2006
fantasised at Monday, November 20, 2006
fantasised at Thursday, November 16, 2006
fantasised at Wednesday, November 15, 2006
fantasised at
5:35 PM
What a fucking day it is. Today, 10am, was supposed t be the publicity thing, but fucking fever had t come and ruin my day, fucking parents had t fuck up my day. But at least the doctor was decent :D I tell you, this open hse thing is the only thing ive wanted t go to this week, but fever had t stop me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GO FUCK AN APE. F. U. C.K.
Wtv, I dont see how saying fuck can help, although it does alleviate my pain…regret!!!!! I dont care, im gonna do this publicity thing at least once in my life.
Yestd, went j8 for movie with family (now fucking family, or FF) happy feet (yes, wonder why ive t watch it? because ive became such a poor pathetic person despo for a movie)
Cinema was like a reminder of school days, pri sch friends like hidayah and danny (from Anderson now) and people like cheryl liew and rina (from smss lah, where else) were there. Then super coincidental, cousin was there watching happy feet too, met her as we came out of cinema.
Prac for the upcoming pop on tues, footdrilling like mad :/ feet was burning, wonder why boots don melt. Blisters at 3 places, I swear, im taping my feet on actual day pop.
Blah, went tp (Thomson plaza, get it?) in the evening, got those new socks (fake crocs, lah) wishlist expanded in a matter of a few minutes, that top, this book (im getting that in her shoes book no mater what okay), and gasp! I saw my dream prom dress there. Its GREEN and sexy enough but not too sexy, lah (: okay, I just need t grow 8cm taller, which is mission impossible :/
That man is generous, he gave people free kiddie rides (you know, that unicorn merry-go-round). Haha long story, ask me if you want details (:
3e3 seems t be rather sad, as far as I heard, people seem t be appealing left, right and centre :/ even sarah wants t opt out t 3e4, nonononono, this is a serious nightmare, fellow bitches (: I was considering appeal (t 3e4 lah, where else), cos if everyone appeals out of 3e3 then I will be the (gasp!) loner, stuck stuck stuck without my fellow bitchess (:
But so far I can only think of one single reason that is remotely decent, I tell you I cant write ‘my fellow bitches are all at 3e4’ or ‘sarah is going too’ to the PRINCIPAL.
So far, it has only been ‘I feel that my going into 3e4 would help me maximize my potential’ or something t that effect. But wtv, deadline has passed, so crumple and throw the letter, man. Throw away the thoughts and bring on 3e3! :D
Btw, did I mention that crocodile socks suckzz t the max? I wore it for a few hrs of footdrill and that hour of pop performance rehearsal, wow, they turned black, and I mean seriously charcoal black, with a few big holes thrown in for added effect, and tada! You have no sock.
Many diff versions of why im not in sch today, here is the real one. Im sick (fucking hell, I hate fever), daddy got injured arm (torn muscle, but he has been such an ass, my sympathy has been killed). Haha, I cooked up a story abt his going overseas (doha for the asian games, where else), but its tmr, lah.
I dont even know what have I got myself into, new tutor is like damn ex and stuck up and sucky :/
Life is crappy, im stuck at home (even have t sneak my laptop t my bed t blog, how pathetic).
11:43 AM
Haha, whoever thought that a lit-hater like me would eventually overcome my hatred and love it like fuck? Okay so I got pure bio and chemistry, there IS goodness in this streaming thing after all (: Phy is lucky not t have me mistreating it, haha. Pure hist, then elect lit, there couldnt be a more perfect subject combo in this world (:
Mother is being such an ass, when I was choosing my subject combo, she was telling me t choose wtv I liked, and that its purely my own decision etc. And when I asked whether geog or hist, she told me clearly my strength was in hist. And guess what? When I got bio and chemistry and pure hist, she went and said I could have taken geog and phy. Like WHAT? You fully told me it hat was my own decision and now you come buzzing around my ears like some fucked up idiot (I don believe in respect for those who don deserve it).
3e3, that's where I would be going for the next two years (4e3 in 2008, lah). Im feeling neither happy nor sad towards it, but I am just a trifle disappointed about not being able to make it to 3e4 although I already expected it. Emotions, that evil evil thing, is always the one t take precedence over mental preparation, omgz how emo do I sound?
All I know is, Im ready for t accept a brand new challenge, but more towards 3e4 than 3e3, haha. Anw, Im contented with what is laid in front of me, so just let me make the best out of what I have (:
Vivo city was just HUGE, omg one level of shopping blinded my eyes like fuck. The colours, the shops, the sights, omgz shopping marathon alert (: vivo is love :D
Oh, did I mention that pop full dress rehearsal for performance was postponed t tmr? And theres a fucking rc mtg tmr too, ass. Mtgs on freaking tues means that I will have t miss gym, what a pain in the arse. omg, uniform inspection, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Btw, anyone wants t watch step up with me? Fucking tired of acting and acting and more acting, dance fever needed!! Haha, im serious, give me an sms if you want t go (:
Okay mother wants me t drink monmilk, she is giving me the evil eye alr, but I have t say this, OMG WHAT THE HELL IS MILK FROM MONGOLIA? Haha.
21 more days t leaders camp. Peijin SCREAMSSS!!
count the no. of times i said fuck. haha.
10:27 PM
The reason why im here is t bitchabouteverything, haha.
Yes xf fine if you not happy with me, I take that, I get on. Firstly, there is nothing socially, morally or wtv wrong with laughing, I was under the impression that laughing actually HELPS. Like huh, you can talk t her while I have t keep quiet, yes and you do not need t purposefully chastise me so loudly.
Rude, yes. If you havent noticed before, yeah we are yearmates but im SEC2SEC2SEC2. There are boundaries, in fact I DEMAND them. WTV.
Woah, its pathetic, people can fake so much just t suck up and get wtv they want. Haha, I start laughing whenever I think of them.
If I could find the strength inside t leave rc, I would, but im stuck in this noncommittal limbo. I just want t make the right decision NOW. I dun want t be a grand old dame in 50 years time, still making snide comments abt rc. In order t go thru with it, keep my feet firmly planted in it, I need t know in advance that I can, if not forget, then at least forgive. I need t know that the little bit of love I feel for rc will grow again, back t the way it was a long long time ago. Why is it that I feel like im the only person who is confused and concerned about the choices I made and where im headed? Why am I ranting? God, I need t stop.
YOU AND YOU AND YOU WERE THE REASONS I DINT GO, WHY SHLD I HUH. Anw it is so not my fault, I went and got nothing so WHY SHLD I BOTHER. Haha.
Tmr is the big 17 nov, im having serious misgivings about my choice of subject combi, omg I dun want a physics and a chemistry do you hear me. Okay, here I am rambling on about physics and chemistry, there I went and put 3e5 down as first choice, god, im such an ass (:
Mon, full dress rehearsal for pop performance (note: I do not consider it a dance) omg why they add in that huh, do they notice I cant split ON the parade ground without hurting my you-know-where and the soles of my feet. Capri pants and class jersey, do they even go together? Haha, im making a big deal out of it (:
Bitching done, bitch (me lah) satisfied (:
10:06 PM
Gym ON MY BDAE left me aching all over, omg that was one hell of a training. Damnit, why cant laoshi just do simple stuff on account of my birthday huh? Ok, so I got home and wanted t blog, but my laptop tio VIRUS. Great way t spend 2 hrs or so relocating and retrieving all my stuff, plus re personalizing my sainted laptop. God, it is a complete energy drainer ): then I chatted on phone with xiyun, until 1am, omg the next morning I was really drained ):
Now that the hols are here, life is supposed to be free for enjoyment but stress is just starting to set in. I have like practically my whole holiday filled. You don want t know my agenda, its freaking stuffed up like sardines :/
The feeling of being sick is so irritating :/ oh yes im stuck with flu, sense of smell is all gone :/ had fever on thurs too, couldn’t make it t post-aop dance practice, or t suyee party on sat either :/ I hate being sick. Its depriving me of freedom :/
Oh damn, my link is everywhere :/ I cant even blog openly, damn it fuck.
What the shit my foot is hurting like fuck. Oh does fuck hurt? (Sorry i couldnt resist.)
Sat, had fever, that on and off kind :/ had t miss suyee party ): in the late afternoon fever seemed t have subsided, so went milenia walk with family. Saw cara chang my friend (: Candy empire was heavenly, omg I can stay there for a year and not get bored (: then went suntec city, ooh that pair of Capri pants fitted mum and I (: I gave up the chance t buy a fbt short for the most gorgeous PUMA shorts (: lovesloves.
Then dad must have came t his senses or smth t notice that bro gets too much stuff nowadays, he offered t buy me that new nokia phone, that one specially for msg-ing with a built-in mp3 player or smth. The prospect of having that phone was tempting, yes it was. But im happy t say that I stayed true t my old friend nokia 3220, and rejected him outright (: serious, my phone went thru triumphs and sadness with me, it survived being thrown across the floor countless times in anger, it battled water, and has the scratches t prove them (: I love my phone, its the best thing that happened t me in a v v long time (:
Rc last fri, footdrill was okayys, new commands and stuff. Had evac lesson, then aop. The dance is crap. But they say can so OKAY lor. Phototaking session was like rah. No mood hur.
Ok, im 13 in cls, that shut dad’s mouth for once, but it was nice t know im in top 15. I have all As and Bs except for a C5 in sci, 3 more marks t that B4, ass. Class jersey was so nice (: tchrs like ms nora, ms kaur and mr tan also have it, LOL. I have got 14 cos im 14 this year. And it also rep 1e4 what! Heh. Oh yea. Samanthas name on class jersey was laterally inverted. LOL.
I have never realized it till now that all my effort equals nothing. How many times have I stayed up late to do stuff? How many times have I sacrificed my free time for that? And you leave me out of it? im angry, but funnily the disappointment outweighs the anger every single time. Fine, if you don think im good enough just tell me straight to my face. You don have to resort to those measures to HUMILIATE me. I hate biased people FYI.
Maybe its because I have grown more mature (I wish), but I have this kind of feeling inside me. This feeling that makes even the allure of fun seem dead, this feeling of being blatantly ignored and cast aside. AS IF IM OF NO IMPORTANCE. Somedays I seem t have no interest in anything, esp during THOSE times. I want t get out, get over, but reality stops me from doing so.
I noticed how pathetic rc is now. Like there is only 14 or so people who are generally commited t go for mtgs. Anyhows, evac accreds are coming, omg. I want that badge (:
I am worried over streaming results, I want that bio/chem combo so so so badly, but I hv got a feeling im likely t get phy/chem :/
Last day of school ended in a bad note, cz was still angry with Christmas and me? Was supposed t be waiting for her at staff room, then we went canteen, so she got angry?
After sch was crazy, took photos with Jessica Jen and sarah, omgz it was fun, LOL. We took photos of cls jersey, lame pics, and posed for the cam, LOL. Im a self cam whore, LOL.
Chewlin wrote temptation for the eoy compo, a story with VIVID description of the male and female anatomy. Quote ‘ they lay stark naked on the gigantic bed with legs entwined’, damn it was sick. And she got a 23 over 30 for that! Whoever thought that rosy was pervertic? (:
Last day was also CCA verification. I got 9 points, they still haven added in ndp 06 yet (:
Had aop on last day too, damn it was malu :/ the dance was like shit, we were like wannabe gb fancy drill-ers? Lavonne and etc ah, seriously smth wrong with their screws man, trying t rape each other. Wtv, I was dying of malu-ness, last day of school everything had t go wrong :/
Last tues. went amk for dinner, same place where I saw mr vampire. Gosh that place seems t attract a lot of rc ppl huh, I saw grouch with her sister and maid :/ grouch like not happy t see me, she went ‘shit man’ in such a loud voicfe, damn if you not happy then don say anything luh, show me face for what huh. Not as if I want t see you. Say shit until so loud, damn embarrassing t be associated with you man.
Last wed. even though I was like only half recovered from the bout of flu, I went j8 AGAIN with family. Peoples, it was the most productive shopping trip ever! Two tank tops for 19 dollars. Where else can you find that other than good old trusty j8?
Bro got back his results, they are making a big fat deal out of it, and HE IS GETTING WTV HE WANTED. Damnit, bro suckzz.
Wedding of cousin, Raymond Koh Aik Tiong to Belinda Pang Su Fern at hotel royal, near united square. It was hardly romantic at all, they dint kiss or wtv. I was trying t be polite with that big huge fake smile stuck on my face, and then I had t greet all the aunts by some specialized name, like why cant I just say hello aunts and get it over with instead of repeating myself like ten thousand times :/
Then I had t put on this fake laughter at their crappy jokes, and answer qns like how old are you. That gray dress was so constricting, unless I sit properly, the seams will break. It was just my luck t sit at the same table with this grand old lady and this aunt the wannabe fashion critics. I had apparently magically morphed into a Mongolian during that 4 hours :/ Wtf la, I go t a wedding t wish the couple luck, not t parade myself.
The dinner was okay, ate till I was super bloated. Drank 8 glasses of orange juice, the waiter might have thought I was some drink machine cos he had t keep filling up my glass (: the bride was okay but abit plump. She changed gowns 3 times, what is the problem with brides la, they keep changing gowns. And I was like observing her, so I knew when she changed and all (: The music was nice, they played songs like titanic and pearl harbor (: 2 seats away, that bitch was trying t show off and stuffs, behaving like a real girly person and smiling that sick, sweet smile trying t charm ppl. JACIA TAN is a real bimbo.
There were 3 yum sengs, omg they took super long. Then the hosts were making sick jokes, it was funny.
Host t Raymond: well, must work hard tonight ar.
Raymond: err
Host: nine months later, we’ll see.
Everyone: laughs.
The last course was sugared yam, it was super delicious and mouth watering. Slurps! After the dinner, people had t go queue up t shake the hand of t bride and groom, how crappy is that.
No rc that fri cos of the wedding, u can imagine how fed up I got. For once, I rather stay in pumping position for 5 hours than attend that stupid wedding. Even though I was supposed t be day i/c, and day i/c is supposedly v scary and stuffs.
Rewind t that wed eons ago, sat arnd and crapped during supposed dots connection planning at 4e1, god, that classroom is dirty man. EXCO announced formally by mrs khor and ms lee, claps all around. Camp commandant is Victoria (yea, open your eyes bigbig, its gonna be funny), asst is Genevieve, secretary is euphoria, logistics people are Rebecca and linette (yea, open your eye bigbig too, she is an additional exco member nominated by teachers), food is shirleen (talent not maximized in my opinion, could have given her more stuffs t do), welfare is jane and games people are Samantha g and leanne. I took down pe shirt size of whole class and contact no for relay system in case of ultra emergency.
Then students from the Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of music came to serenade us at the hall, music was soothing and gave much needed breather from worry over eoy results, im glad :D
Im falling head over heels in love with princess hours, chae gyung and shin are total eyecandy together :D but huizheng and yul are evilz :/ although yul was lovable in d beginning (: Korean dramas are all I live for now :D jewel made me cry, princess hours made me cry too, at funnily emotional episodes (: heh. Shin reminds me of mr chua. LOL.
Rewind t long long ago, eoys results were horrors, I felt as if I was sinking into the deep deep waters of melancholy. That thurs. It was bad enough receiving math papers at the start of the morning, I dint need a heart attack, but I got it anyway. Next was hcl, by then I was alr immune t the shock, I dint even realize I failed paper 2 until fats exclaimed that she failed. After that was home econs in the hall. I dint particularly care much, took a look at the marks, and it was so true. Study or not, I still get a B3.
Recess was abit of a blur, after that was English, the one I had pinned my hopes on, but my heart was smashed when I saw what I got. 31 over 50 for paper 2. Was looking forward t paper 1, but it turned out we were not to get them back, further disappointment. I was dreading the moment of going home, but it still came.
I can foresee, the difficulty of keeping t the commitment as a dots connection leader. The hysterical mum told me lim chu kang is such an ulu place and guess what, she said I might get raped there by men hiding in the forests. Wtv. im not sure I can go luh. Dad going overseas for Asian games, so he was like, serimbun v dangerous, and I cant go when he is nt in sg :/ But I don mind him getting me out of the rc camp at all. Hee.
That friday. First thing in the morning was lit, it was okay I guess, considering the fact that I dint study for it. 65 was a B3, my unseen prose pulled me UP for the first time, I got 15 over 20 for it (: second was ih, and that was where my heartbreak started. I studied, I expected a lot more. But I got a measly 74, one more mark to that coveted A1, damn I got I mark short of an A2 for overall :/ Considering the fact that they moderated the paper, many people did very well.
After recess was sci, by then my heart was broken beyond repair. Yours would too, if you had put in so much effort into studying, and you get back a C6 for all your effort. By then I was not even hyperventilating, I dint even see the point of anything anymore. Okay I cried abit, but no one except Christmas knew why and saw (:
Dance marathon at esplanade with xiyun and Adrienne was damn hot and fun :DD Then we went j8 t walk arnd, I still haven’t buy that thing yet, damn I want it so badly but I scared later regret buying? So yea. Nothing much. Went home at 9pm.
Gym is like, crazy? Training 4 times a week, omgz :/
Guess what. That tues I decided t go bishan lib. Then I forgot it was Hari Raya. Public hols lib closed what. Omgz.
Last wed. Dots connection planning at 4e1 was alrights but still boring, tshirt design was ahem, rejected again, haha. Did cheers, woots they all rhyme (: got cheers for bathing, eating, sleeping etc, LOL. ROCK A BYE ST MARGS IN SERIMBUN (: note: sing t the tune of rock a bye baby (: Mr Charles Low had a pep talk with us Leaders must be united, then have good discipline etc. I shall TRY to get along with ALL of the people okayys. TRY.
IPP exercise was so effing hot. Then have t climb up and down t stick masking tape. Chewlin pon school, and cz was in sick bay, asses (: I ended up having t collect the IPP kit :/
Formally stripped of any form of communication with the outside world, laptop included :/ but im using it now, dad just uploaded it so I can finally have fast internetzz, GREAT (:
Last post for the year I guess, hopefully I will be back with good news for all of you after 17 nov (: I WANT BIO AND CHEM.
I will miss the happy times and the sad times of 2e5. I WILL MISS LISA TEO CHENG MUN. KEEP US IN YOUR HEART ALWAYS OKAYY!
Amigos Para Siempre. Memories, kept forever (: I think I will write testimonial for every single one in 2e5, look out for it (:
Damn, had civil defence course on my birthday, omg. Im a bit disappointed with my presents this year, it seems t be decreasing ): somehow I feel unwanted :D anyways, I got a blackforest cake, although I have an inkling that im too old for cakes, its still FOOD (: then an absolutely BEAUTIFUL pair of gym shorts from xiyun, omg I LOVE YOU XIYUN <3 plus that novel from sl (: and the manymany sms-es from you WONDERFUL people out there (: im a blessed girl.
Btw, I PASSED CIVIL DEFENCE COURSE!!! So the scdf did give me a present after all (: and I got FULL MARKS for the test (: hail the smart one :D
I LOVE FATS. I LOVE SARAH. I LOVE SL. These are facts (:
Badges badges here I come (: decorate my uniform with your charm (:
6:19 PM