Friday, January 19, 2007
im at a point which i shall term insanely tired. Physically, mentally and emotionally.
This seems an appropriate juncture to insert a plea of desperation to my friend who stays up late with me on nights like these.
Dear God, common sense tells me im doomed. In all honesty i dont know how im going to finish my work and pass my tests. Actually i have no idea how im going to have enough time to just finish all the things i have to do, let alone put aside time for revising.
i dont like times like now because everyone gets stressed and everyone gets a little crankier. Mugging season has officially started again, less than a month after school started, more intensely than ever.
Had rc today, practiced footdrill and prepared for upcoming talentime, plus played dog and bone the red cross way. Im afraid I wasnt very enthu or positive about everything, stress and pressure combined made me listless. Lynette ma’am actually held up my leg 45 degrees to correct my footdrill, which was kind of maluating because I wasnt wearing shorts.
Every year the same feeling hits me whenever cca fair comes round; this year its the same. It seems that im never content with life, even though life has offered me so much and more.
Sarah isnt very optimistic about her chances of getting into modern dance, im not very optimistic about my year in red cross. Melancholy hits from all angles. i just want them to know that i love them but why do they have to make it so hard.
Assembly today was alright, but people sitting around me were just so noisy and over enthusiastic; it was hard to really enjoy the music and to clear my head.
i dunno what to do now. Dont feel like talking to anyone about this, which is why im here. Too tiring and elicits too many emotions.
Okay soon things will be shifting again, we'll be reaching out again, moving out, and things will change, and we will carry on, and everything will be... all right.
fantasised at
9:52 PM
