just a little more love.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

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6:50 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007

Emaths today was a laugh, with us talking about the Abigail chay lookalike figure, and singing the ever cute formula song (x equals to minus b, plus or minus, square root of…)

Chemistry, however, was retarded. Nair was in a bad mood today, coming into class all irritable and fierce. Also dunno what she was fed up with us for, but I tell you, she is the MOST IRRESPONSIBLE teacher I have ever known. I freaking handed up my chem. Worksheet all nice and well done, but SHE LOST IT!!!

Then, she had to go and tell sarah to switch places with gloria ong, and deny picking on me. Okay, after that she confiscated my book, and then crushed up balas piece of work. What happened to her pen-confiscating? So, to cut the story short, she was so retarded she dint even take the book with her, and left it on the teachers table.

Had free period for amaths cos they were calculating the O Level results. However, we had our amath ct during assembly period, and it was just GREAT. I actually figured out the singular matrix!

O Level results released yestd, 25 students achieved 9 A1s, and top school was St. Nics (: tension released and buildup, haha. Anyway, I hope my seniors plus cousins did well. Congrats people, you have just earned yourself a cert (:

Rc yestd, sorry, no answers here. Sometimes, life doesn’t always have answers.

I cant stand YOU and YOU and YOU. I think you are seriously obsessed with rc, for one. Then YOU keep moaning about your life, as if mine is any better. I do not want to hear about your personal problems and its such a laugh to think that you don’t even have discreetion. Then you are always harping on us, being biased towards someone. And that someone is so infuriating doesnt she know that even though we are yearmates, IM A FREAKING GODDAMN SEC 3??

I declare that I have really boring homework ): no creativity, no nothing. Just plain, content-based shit. In short, read textbook, process and complete. Which I have no, absolutely no motivation to do.

My tolerance is very low now, anger me again and youre so dead.

Fuck off, you asses :D

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6:46 PM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Today was alright on the whole, but I must say that lessons are really boring. English encounter was plain dead, no one has the energy in the morning. History was fun I guess, lsb went on a long and lengthy conversation about rain (the k-pop star) and encompassed it with animations (: then we learnt about reliability questions, which were kind of understandable and maybe even nice.

Hcl, that relief teacher had a grudge with us or something, and kept on going on and on about how bad our class was, how stubborn, how etc etc. THEN he complained to ms b lim, but she dint do anything, thankfully. For those of you who want to know, wangli has gone on a competition in Thailand. GOOD LUCK laoshi (:

O Level results tom, whether you are dreading it or looking forward to it, mixed feelings will be there on 1430! So cheerioz (:

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6:46 PM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

We finally got our beautiful copper (ii) sulphate crystals today (: haha actually, no. our class kind of overheated the solution so our crystals dint exactly turn out to be crystals. They looked more like…copper sulphate powder. Nair deemed our class the worst out of 3 classes and told us to take a look at them and then, throw them away. Oh, can you believe her? So unsentimental ):

anyway, nair decided to give us all crystals from the lab. And I took it and mixed it with the powder from my evaporating dish, so now it looks kinda weird…

by the way, friendship crisis settled but still, WTH IS HER ATTITUDE? Makes me feel shit but however we are still friends.

The amount of homework today was shocking. Emath, amath, you name it, I have it. why do they like to pile the homework up all in one day and then make us rush like mad? But im really proud to say that I have already settled all of them except abit of emath and history (:

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6:46 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Im tired. Of everything.

Ss ct was alright I guess, though I was so sleepy that I felt fuzzy and blur towards the end of question 1c, and wrote almost all crap.

Hcl test was pretty bad, I did study but obviously why would I go memorise the two articles? However wangli had to come up with this detailed, in depth section that left me stumped and yea…loss of marks AGAIN.

I keep messing up my tests.

Nair was in a remotely good mood today, she even managed to joke with us about her height and all. Quite funny, really. Then she told us that if she saw us doing other work in class, she would confiscate our pen and we had better use a cheap pen. It turned out that SARAH got her pen confiscated because she was copying lines for MJT.

Anyway, nair said that we laughed and giggled for no apparent reason at all, and warned us that if we went up to jc, all the boys would think that we are v silly. Therefore, I posed a question to her ‘what if all the boys also giggle and laugh?’ nair was indeed in a good mood to joke with today (:

Actually, she punished me for talking by telling me to stand at the back. But it was highly enjoyable because I found ways around her punishment :D im naughty.

Still, the day was not brightened by nair. Someone had the cheek to place my rc bottle in my box and its not that I never warned her before but yea she still had to do it and I know its just a plaything but I don’t treat my stuff as playthings and when I shouted fucker at her I admit it was super loud but hey, I got agitated so im loud. but hello she doesn’t have to go and cry just because, well, I shouted fucker at her. I mean, maybe its pms or something like you have a fragile and breakable spirit but still, you don’t have to go and cry. And its not that I want to shout, I feel bad and wanted to apologise but I know it’s a bad time and so…

I mean, im already so tired please do not add another friendship crisis onto me.

Mr Anthony sat in for pure history while mr chong conducted the lesson, but the former ended up stealing the limelight. He was talking about writing out two sides of the argument for history because we are neutral people, and gave hitler as an example. He began by saying that Hitler was a good man and during the course of his speech, jaya and a few others giggled. he told jaya to get out of class and when she hesitated, he KICKED her chair and yelled. And i thought lsb was fierce.

My day was just bad.

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6:46 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007

School today was just drama, drama, drama.

Early in the morning, horror of horrors, ms chang decided to go through the issues of newsweek. And off she went, like a bullet train, talking to us as if we were some English programmed robot. Gosh.

Real drama began when suddenly we had a spot check. Apparently some phones (strongly suspect a Motorola v3 pink one) and an ipod were stolen, so the spot check mania began. It took up to about 40 minutes or so, after which we were all given the all clear to go for recess, pe, whatever. Highly dramatic period of time indeed.

Pe was soccer again, I got way pissed with some crazy cow who tried to lecture me every now and then about the golden ways of goalkeeping when she herself had given her goalkeeping duties to ME. Im not a born goalkeeper you know.

Talking about soccer, ECSTATIC that Singapore won the ASEAN football c’ships. Heard loud shouts of SINGAPORE GOAL from downstairs yesterday night and decided to switch on the tv for abit to check out the situation. It turned out that the brilliant goal scoring moment was just being replayed (: football…the unity, the spirit, the competitiveness of it all just amazes me. It was a beautiful game, well played and well strategised. CONGRATULATIONS to the Singapore team (:

Daddy was in Thailand as usual to photograph that game, and he returned only today, with stashes of food and bags of clothes (: oh, what a shopping fanatic he is.

Kept quiet all throughout bio lesson, refused to laugh, talk or even smile. I think im going to stay that way for weeks to come. I have just lost respect for dear MJT, and the only reason why I listen in class now is because I respect THE SUBJECT, not her. Well, people cant just accuse another falsely and get away with it. We do have laws, you know.

Emath mrt did not really go well, left two questions on indices blank and was absolutely careless on factorization. Well, indices is really not my forte.

After working so bloody hard, I think im finally beginning to see some results. SS graded assignment was WELL DONE. A 14 over 17 isnt bad for a novice in SS, so im sufficiently happy (:

Off to do my work and tackle revision for tom’s tests, goodbye (:

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6:46 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

I don’t want to do this; I know she’s a good teacher. But its one thing to get scolded and another to be WRONGLY ACCUSED of something I did not do. Bio. Mrs j.tan spoiled my day on fri; she not only convinced me that teachers are blind but only notice students unless they make some noise (i.e. laugh). I really DID pay attention in bio, just because I missed out vital information on water potential doesn’t mean im laughing the entire time. As my teacher, you should know better than this. You should know that I don’t laugh the entire lesson; I take down notes; I try my best to listen when I could have easily read my book under the table. Of all people, YOU SHOULD KNOW.

I felt like an innocent person being jailed for a crime I dint commit. I walked around the school the entire day, feeling that amount of hurt and unjustice weighing heavily down on me. Bio was the only subject (apart from lit) that I felt motivated to study for. I put my heart and soul down to it, only to be so cruelly torn apart.

That day I was mentally tired; I tried to absorb but it dint actually go into my writing. Is being tired a crime? I work 24/7 a day, I rush out projects, assignments, sleep past midnight. I have to face my parents, face the world, when they all look towards me for an answer to studying.

Fri you left me wondering, is my behavior that bad? I did some thinking, I did ask myself questions. But I maintain that I was NEVER EVER unattentive during bio. In the beginning I hated you for not noticing me when I was attentive; not looking my way.

Fri I felt the urge to cut myself (be thankful it never happened) cos I felt that life is so shit. There are so many issues; homework, projects, ballet. Your scolding pulled me deeper into the river of depression.

Had rc on fri. Was quiet cos of MRS J.TAN lah, then who else. Blahblah and dismissed. Waited for tharshini with sarah, went home together.

On thurs wangli must have had too much stress or smth, she was actually crazy enough to spring a compre test on us :/ it ended up alright cos I did put my heart and soul into it, so…ya.

Hist structured essay test was okay, I did study but, as with all things, I dint study in depth. However it was manageable la, I did quite okay.

Everything has been just a blur. Bio test being alright but not too well done, failing my hcl ct with a horrendous score of 42, etc etc.

And I find that im averaging 3 to 4 tests per week nowadays. Sec 3 life is hard.

Lsb actually changed our seats in hist, so now we are sitting in fours. And im sitting with strangers, people like germaine tan (tennis girl), shalaka (okay I do know her) and Alexandra (the supposed sec 4 girl). Why must he change all our seats?

Attended the tangent talk at national library yestd with the entire hcl class. Gloria tan, Brenda, mabel, Winnie and I met for lunch at bugis before that. Everything was quite fuzzy and unclear because we changed meeting place and ended up with frantic phone calls and sms-es (: it all ended quite well and we trooped down to mos burger to have our lunch, following that we walked round in circles to look at stuff in bugis.

Met people from our school doing flag day at various locations, and being nice, I donated (: anyway, we walked around for quite some time (and saw ms koh on the way, but she was plugging in her earphones so was literally deaf) before we finally rushed to the library. Went to the pod, level 16, where we found out that the only seats available were next to the RI boys (cue horrifying screams). Therefore we decided to sit on the floor at the side, a much better sitting position altogether.

There were quite a few schools there, ranging from st.nics, chung cheng high and RI to scgs and of course, smss. While other schools only sent in some representatives, our school had to be the extra one and send in the entire class. That’s kiasuism at work for all to see. The speaker was a prof koh, alumnus of cath high primary and chung cheng high and another lady, the alumnus of pasir panjang pri and crescent girls school.

Found out a great deal about schools and school life in the past, and to give them credit, quite a few were very interesting. Like how crescent was formerly a co-ed school but was transformed to a girls school because there were a shortage of schools. There was also funny moments, like when a guy went up to ask a question but ended up listing the entire Singapore history right then and there.

Anyhow, so the talk ended (wangli told us to write a reflection on it, not only will it be graded, its gonna end up on Friday weekly) and we headed down to the library to browse through books. I ended up borrowing, like how I always do if you put me anywhere remotely near a library. After that, huini and I went for a burger. Got home before 630.

Anyway I had no idea that the bitch was so bitchy. She actually goes around advertising that she changes her boyfriends frequently, trying to give the impression that oh wow she is so attractive or something. I mean, if you want to be intimate, go far far away from school lah, stand outside school for what? People ah, dont want to be people, must go and be bitches. Aiyoyo.

Today was way productive. Taught my bro for an hour, finished revision for hcl tom.

Haix. Life could spin off into all kinds of dramas, roller-coasters, tears and tantrums, but still, the HOMEWORK has to be done.

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