just a little more love.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

been trying to write my eng essay for the past couple of hours but nothing came out.
I have come to this point where im typing everything out without omission.

The day started off badly. Chang scolded me for putting my files on my table and taking up three quarters of my working space. I don’t know what happened with sarah and me. But all I know is, my heart broke when I went back to class after rc and saw the table moved. Rc was complete disaster. We were being serious for footdrill but got scolded for not having enthusiasm. In the past we laughed around and got scolded as well. Well if we cant be serious and cant laugh then what can we do. The scolding went from a quiet one to one of the harshest tone. Xinfeng, michele cried. Honestly, I felt like crying too, but I forced my tears away. Why should I cry? Instead I bottled it all up, put on a smiling front for captains ball. I was telling myself, once I get home im going to have a good cry. But by that time I was already numb. Numb to the pain, numb to the blows. If at that time you tell me that my house caught fire or smth I would have smiled.

Im trying not to think abt it but I don’t know how to go to school on mon.

This week was a hectic week. Eng narrative test was alright, I wrote about an autistic child. The topic they gave us was cooperation btw. Chem ct was quite alright, bit of a disaster really.

TOM ROBINSON - running away from jail, giving up on the appeal - running away from the battle he and atticus are fighting – courage is is the substance of things hoped for, and courage is courage when you think it is.

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Thursday, March 29, 2007

today was a good and bad day lah, in a way.

I really want to make this transparent. I know you might have done it out of a joke or maybe even intentionally, but the fact that you are my friend makes me feel betrayed. Certainly, it had affected my mood to a certain extent. Chewlin told me to scold you, but for what? And its not as if I went out playing or smth. I was at home STUDYING, for goodness sake!

And im not running for hse anymore. One word – hierarchy.

Anyway, I TOPPED PURE HISTORY! Hahaha. Full marks for graded assignment and my answer was flashed onto the screen (: for ss, I tied for third with xinmin. 39 over 50, which means that I need at least an A2 in my lit to secure an A1 for my combined humans. IM PROUD OF MYSELF!

During hist today lsb gave us a very nice lesson on courts and how cases were heard, which brings me to the point that I have decided to apply for work attachment instead of costly exchange programmes if I have the chance in the near future (:

And, our netball C div girls made it into the finals at south zone, so all the sec threes are going to troop down to toa payoh sports hall to CHEER SUPPORT SCREAM for our school. HEYY STMARGS SAY POWER!

Tom is learning journey AND rc after that. Gonna be long and tiring and its gonna rid me of precious study time again. HAHA I told you, im a work addict (:

Sometimes life is so complicated. Sometimes betrayal takes on the form of disappointment, and people shove aside the topic so that a delicate friendship wont hang onto a thread. Sometimes life is like that, I guess. You need to overlook some things, you need to be able to forgive. Im trying hard…but I just want to hate you.

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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

hmm yestd was quite alright, except for a scare by elizabeth chua my junior. She suddenly crept up to me during recess and went around following me for quite a while, which is so weird.

Anyway, there has been quite a lot of homework lately, contrary to what mrs elim thinks. She screamed at us during chem today and nearly exploded right in front of us due to ionic bonding. Haha.

Ms choo went for a course midway into ss, so on the dot at 2.05, I ran out of class and straight home where I did TYS (:

Surprisingly, I skipped rc today to be with my books at home. I just find that I simply lack interest in doing nonsensical things and prefer to be studying and studying. I seem to love my books more (: haha, face it man, im a work addict!

Actually today was pretty shocking too because well, wangli has a blog! And that means she knows a lot more stuff. And that means I hope she wont manage to land here. I prefer having my privacy respected (:

Received verification slip for chinese O level today. heartbeat raced and pulsated because its so near yet im so far. I really need to focus on my chinese and to beef it up (:

YESSSS IM SO HAPPY BECAUSE I GOT 32 DOLLARS FOR THE SMSS DONATION CARD!!

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Monday, March 26, 2007

I think my body is filled with caffeine now. Isnt it sad that I have to rely on 3 cans of latte to keep me awake all through boring Monday?

Anyway, it was like the weather had to match my mood this morning. There was a heavy downpour and many of the girls got caught in traffic jams on stevens road I heard.

Emath mrt today was alright I guess, I messed up my similarity and congruency AGAIN. lessons were actually not bad, I was on a fully high mode today so the three of us at the back had a great laugh. Shirleen sprained her neck during syf dance rehearsal so she was absent, the back row feels empty without her (:

I know my valency table but WHY cant I memorise it?? I know my surds (okay maybe I dunno) but WHY cant I do my tuition hw??

Im such a failure in amath and chem. Shall stick with history and lit instead :DD humans make my day (:

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History reliability questions are so long winded ):

Anyway, shirleen, xinmin and I were really pissed with sarah today because she spoilt out bio cell model which we painstakingly made. Actually, it was gaya who dropped it, but sarah was at the scene of the ‘crime’ haha. So, we redid the entire model and I still love sarah. HEHE xD

I think I finally understand why old people dont want their children know about their illnesses. Being bitten by the flu bug, I went around silently and dint tell anyone that I had flu but I took medicine lah of course. In a way, I was trying to evade the nagging and the fussing I guess. But still, my mother found out because my voice had miracleously changed. Haha.

Anyway, I have a couple of books that I have set my targets on, and the list is ever growing. Firstly, I went down to popular at j8 and GUESS WHAT? Shopaholic and baby was sold out. So much for wanting it. anyway, I hunted around for the hua yang shao nian shao nu book but still couldnt find it. those tv dramas should be made into books and more people will read chinese books (: I saw princess diaries, but I just got my bio and chem TYS and left, because I think I liked shopaholic better (:

Choo guy took us for bio today and oh my goodness he is so boring. But, at least he doesnt pick on me and accuse me like mjt. Well, as I said, I study bio because I love it and not because of the teacher.

I still have emath and hcl to settle, so ciao!

I LOVE ANGELS OF MISSION (WU MING TIAN SHI 3D)!!

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Saturday, March 24, 2007

I think im close to exploding.

Buses whizz pass us, but dont we see the fact that our life whizzes past too? life is fragile, but when we start to realise that, we are made to see the importance of mundane things and made to let go of our interests.

I know they mean well but why do they make it so hard.

Concern can only go so far.

What I truly believe is, the real beauty of life lies in the fact that we can look forward and yet keep the past ((:

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Yestd was crappy.

Mjt told me off – again. Its kind of sickening and gets irritating after a while. In a way, she is just like nair, picking on me for the slightest thing. We were in bio lab doing practical, and then she just came and screamed at melanie and me. Hello its not even us alone lah, other people were doing the wrong thing too.

Anyway im really pissed off with her now and the only reason I even listen to her is because I like bio and not because I like HER. Oh well.

We had our chemistry test back and miracleously, I PASSED. I totally had no confidence with nair as my teacher so the 27 over 45 was certainly pure goodness in my eyes. Elim is really kind of strict.

Rc was alright but boring. Was split into our groups for Inspire camp 07 and tried to come up with ideas for group flag. My group was very dead and im seriously very tired of always being the one who tries to mix around with the year ones, so I might as well be dead. And I cannot believe im stuck with HER. I want a way out, and I will.

Was just reading the latest edition of newsweek and oh my goodness I have to say that the essay on Tony Blair was very well written. It elicited me to do some thinking, and well, it was able to point out his good and weak points AND still remain neutral.

Chingay parade this year was quite colourful, I wasnt at the parade itself but I was watching the live telecast on channel 8. I must say that the gymnastics one stirred something in my heart, and it was with these feelings that I realised that wherever I am, whatever I do, gym will always be a part of me.

GAHH I have problems with my ss homework because I cant decide whether to write a narrative or a personal recount ):

Anyway, my parents have been finding fault with me and comparing me to my more well-behaved bro nowadays. Ugh.

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

okay im back. Rushed through the last few days…and made it thru (:

ss test on tues was okay. Last question though, left me thinking and thinking and thinking for a good 5 minutes. Comparing similarity of source c and d ):

Wed was disastrous. Elizabeth bloody STALKED me okay. Let me tell you, in the morning she followed me to school and started asking me these stupid questions. Like ?!?!

And I stained my uniform(together with the chair in history room) and I added water and then it looked even worse ): however, we were the ONLY class having recess on that time slot which is almost miracluous (:

today was another disastrous day. we had to finish that piece of si han that wangli gave us because she dint allow us to bring it home. So we stayed back to do it and ended up missing our lunch because by that time I finished, the canteen had no food at all ):

lsb told us about his arrangement to split us into 2 groups cos too big a class affects learning etc and horror of horrors, I AM STUCK WITH THE CHONG GUY. History lessons are going to be twice as boring from now on. Stuck with a humour-lesss teacher and some boring old discussion questions, history is really going to be a failure.

And I have yet to tell you the highlight of this disastrous day. BATHING in the toilet with this BIG HUMONGOUS CROCKROACH. I thought that, after a hectic day in school, I can finally unwind and have a nice long bath, but NO, an insect has to spoil my day. I almost bolted out of the toilet stark naked but took the world’s shortest bath instead. And when I got out of the toilet, smarmy Mr Cockroach was still smiling and wriggling on the floor ): I AM NEVER GOING INTO THE TOILET AGAIN.

This episode even eciplised my big PE news. It was the FIRST TIME in THREE years that I ran THREE rounds without stopping. FIRST TIME AND IM SO HAPPY! :D

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School today was okay. Got accused yestd night, cried a lot and my eyes ended up puffy and swollen. Ms chang was like ‘peijin, did you even sleep last night?’ O_o anyway, xinmin and sarah were laughing at my eyes all the time ):

Rc was yet another normal dreadful mtg again. Got my drills right this time round but, it was just so empty. I mean, everyone was at science day helping out while I was torturing myself with cca. And this time round its worse because I got lectured without reason again.

Sarah has some sort of affinity with latte (: she always always gets the last bottle haha. And was super coincidental today because I saw the rc bootsmaker and actually recgonised him, kept a professional face, and directed him to the rc com (:

Been having pms lately, kept getting irritable with this and that and being displeased with the way things were generally run. To top it all, I lost the rc bottle I left in school and got my bag soaked in green marker ink, no less.

So, I ended up really fed up with myself and went home right after rc instead of staying for guides campfire with sarah. Msged her and she said that it was great but sadly, I was alr half asleep by then so I said goodnight. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

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I have come to a point where I have to say everything out.

I hate the people around me. They force me to do things I loathe, they spit out my name without consulting me, they literally…pull me in for everything, everywhere.

I have never said I wanted to do talentime dance. It was ALL your opinion. I never said I was your friend. YOU just assumed I liked your dog-like tagging. I never said I wanted to know about your stupid, child-like obsessions over a certain teacher. YOU kept telling me. YOU are sickening, you correct every single thing I do.

Its only the FIRST week back from cny, but yet I have multiple things thrown straight at my face.

Bio test on osmosis and diffusion was neutral I guess. I dont have a good feeling about it, but as with chem, I am not going to bother about it. osmosis and diffusion was never my strong point, and so im not expecting to do very well.

Somehow, my expectations dont tally with my results. Look at my amaths test. 19 over 25 and all careless mistakes. Ss was good, 13 over 17, the highest being 14.

But I hate myself for not being able to bring myself to show my emath failure to my parents because, well, I had an agreement with them.

Bio project is almost done, we stayed back today to do it and I had to forgo my lunch and SHE still has the cheek to tell me to do it tom and go do talentime dance. And in the midst of doing it, I cant even have some peace and quiet because stupid shitty rc sec twos were crowding around me moaning and whining. Im sorry I have to say this, but juniors these days dont have a shred of respect for their seniors. Sometimes I do wish I was born deaf.

Anyway, I got my cme over and done with today. wangli still isnt here, and she wasted my time memorising the classical texts when I could have been studying for osmosis and diffusion.

Had e lim for chem yestd. Experienced teacher and better than nair. Still, she looks like a cashier from shop and save. Haha.

And im a trifle angry with sarah because she told everyone I went to j8 yestd instead of doing talentime stuff and everyone ended up so angry with me when in fact I DID NOT GO AT ALL.

HEAR THAT? I DID NOT EVER GO TO J8 SO WHY ARE ALL OF YOU ACCUSING ME?

This is why I hate people. They accuse you just like mjt.

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Monday, March 19, 2007

Back to school today!

I was really late in the morning, and while waiting in the bus stop I was getting kinda scared cos there was NO bus in sight and the students around me were all like frantically waving and/or calling for a taxi. But in the end, 165 saved the day! :D
We received new timetables today…and it turns out that Monday blues is really going to set in because lessons on Monday are so Boring ):

Anyway, this is a pad conversation that happened in class today.
Sarah: wahh I need pad, you got extra?
Me: no lah, you want me to help you ask the class?
Sarah: NONO, its OKAY.
Me: *grins evilly CLASS, ANYONE GOT EXTRA PAD TO LEND SARAH???
Then suddenly, cherissa our dear friend turned to the back and handed sarah a GIGANTIC pad! Sarah was abit stunned by the ahem, size of the pad (: its those 35cm kind one :DD

Changchang changed some peoples places today too, so now the two glorias are sitting in front and natasha and judi have moved to their seats behind us. Charite was unhappy sitting right in front with satya, so she went sniffy to changchang O_o

So many tests this week! And I need to study for ss tom! WHY YOU SCHOOLS SO CRUEL TO SEC THREESSSSSSS

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

chu xi ye or CNY eve yestd, had reunion dinner (the traditional steamboat) and it wasn’t very appetizing because most of the food was uncooked ):

Anyway, woke up late today and dallied for quite a while. Took my own sweet time choosing my new year clothes, knowing that anything I wear will be under close scrutiny (note: bitchy cousin). Then headed off to grandma’s house.

Okay, I dint even expect to see stmargs people there, but I did. Apparently, the Leong girls (leong mei lin, leong mei poh, leong mei ting) were just next door to my grandma’s house. COINCIDENTAL right?? Anyway, no one regconised me, so I left it as that (:

Grandma’s house was not as packed as last year, and i could still regconise some of the relatives. The regular people were there, but some like third aunty (direct translation from chinese) had grown fatter, and some were plain eccentric. Cousin’s voice broke, so now he sounds quite manly hahaha. The bitch was there as usual, and being the bitch that she is, she changed clothes 3 times. Weird.

Anyway, I got two little nieces who are super naughty and cute :D magdalene teo and lynn teo are two mischievious and very lovable kids (: then there is jordan, a tubby little boy (my nephew) and the cousin of magdalene and lynn.

The hosts were cousin kahwei’s parents, and they ordered pizza and buffet. I ate a lot and drank 3 cans of soft drinks and must have looked like a glutton. And apparently fourth aunty said I had grown thinner which is so fake because well, I eat a lot.

And there was this cousin who thought that I was still in primary school ): anyway, I behaved like a true lady and seemed like an idiot afterwards (you know, sit there not talking unless spoken to etc). and no, I dint bring my donation card because its so lame to go up to relatives and ask them to donate. They will think im some kind of girl who wants to siphon money off them when they have already given me angpaos.

And I think my grandma has an absolute MEGAWATT memory because she remembers EVERY SINGLE ONE of her relatives. Matriarches are super xD

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Friday, March 16, 2007

march march march.
Bang bang bang.
Hentak hentak hentak.

Wahh training for world red cross day is so tiring! Anyway, rc campsite is such an ulu place; I got lost wandering about at maria ave before I finally reached the correct location :/

Ohoh and I just realised I need to be in two places at the same time on 7 april O_o I thought the world red cross day celebrations began at 1.15 but it turned out that we, the marching people, had to be there to march march march from 9am O_o then, just as perfectly, I have ballet at 11am. Rarr.

Back to school in 2 days’ time! Hooray :D

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today was cny celebrations and early dismissal along with td commerorations as well.

Bio was the first period, and mjt was going through workbook. Lesson was boring and very dry, so I casually remarked to sarah that ‘I cant wait for bio to end’. Less than 3 minutes later, fire alarm went off and so I thought, HOORAY. And it turned out later that I wanted mjt to finish workbook fast fast in time for second ct after cny O_o

Td video and powerpoint, recess for entire school and then finale…the cny concert. It wasnt as interesting and fun as I wanted it to be, and the spirit of cny was entirely absent. The dances were not very artistically appealing, and the other programs were turn-offs for me. And another thing is that there were A LACK OF CNY SONGS.

Many people were heading off to town or wherever, but instead, being the boring person that I am, I headed off home to snack on V day chocs and watch tv. So, for the entire day from 4 to 11, I was literally glued to the tv hahaha.

However, one drama affected me the most. Angels of mission that was showing on channel U at 10pm. From triple nine to angels of mission, I declare that I LIKE POLICE STUFF A LOT. Anyway, after watching the fourth episode of it if im not wrong, I ended up having this weird ambition of wanting to become a criminal intelligence officer. It stirred up a passion in me that was fueled by triple nine. and the storyline is so unexpected. Plus, its way intriguing and well, its very cool to see a pen being able to take pictures and high-tech stuff. A MUST SEE!!

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHY. YOU STOP ME FROM SPEAKING AND YOU BLATANLY SCOLD ME.

Anyway, yes I got scolded by some unfeeling uncaring unsympathetic ungracious unkind and biased people. People whom I have been trying hard to please but have now given up on them. Well, people in my cca. Maybe its just a case of misunderstanding. And I don’t want to know furthur. Because I know its potentially hurting.

Sigh. A small thing can escalate into a big thing. Don’t we all know that? But why do we waste time on meaningless things like scoldings. The world is beautiful, God’s love is beautiful and we have reason to smile everyday.

So I shall smile (:

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today was an eventful day.

Right from the morning, I got accused again, this time by my dad, therefore entered school in a foul mood.

Then lessons proceeded as usual, until pure hist. Haha history is the only lesson I think is alive now; lsb isnt so daunting once you get to his class. Since the chong guy was teaching, we were all very dead, because, well, its the morning and no one wants to listen to boring old sleepy talk.

Until the second period when lsb took over, we were all mostly quiet and dead. So, he decided to wake us up by telling us a joke (chong guy has no sense of humour). To quote ‘yestd was V day right? I had dinner at home. Then, I took my wife out for supper, and we had an early night. And you know, my wife is pregnant, and its due soon. And as you know, the baby tends to kick a lot, and then my wife told me, eh baby kicking. So I was very excited. And then I went to touch it, but could not feel anything. so I told my wife, got nothing leh, where got kick? And my wife said (punchline) of course don’t have lah, its my buttocks! Hoho. Funny but…dots.

Bio ct was given out and I have to say that im very displeased with the results. When most people heard that I got 26, they were like, oh never study right. But actually, I did…quite a lot. Although I passed, it turned out that people who never study actually did pretty well.

I dont like mrs jt.

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Today marks a HISTORICAL day.

Firstly, V day. Food, flowers, ornaments, notes. Little things that really brightened up my day (: sarah and christmas specially went down to j8 yestd to get a clique friendship band for all of us, and we are trying to attempt to wear them under our socks and try not to get caught haha.

Anyway, I had several other gifts as well. A beautiful stalk of rose (which I spent the whole entire day taking care of but it still withered) from winnie, a note from sarah, choclates from chewlin, oreos from both dalvinjit and ms chang, sweets from yixia, chocolate bar from cherissa, glow-in-the-dark stars from gloria ong, hershey’s kisses from carissa, and chocolates from christmas (:

Well, nair’s chem lesson was the highlight of the day. Out of mischief at first, we actually wrote ‘we love mrs nair and happy valentine’s day’ on the board. And subsequently through the course of the entire recess time, words like ‘we want to become chemists in future because of you’ and ‘mark our test paper with care’ appeared on the board.

The board became really messy and cluttered. So, we decided to surprise nair for abit. After greeting her, we shouted ‘happy valentine’s day’ and natasha presented her with a flower. Being retarded as usual, nair actually said ‘I am very deeply touched’, and she actually went to read the crap we wrote on the board! So, anyway, nair was less strict today (:

At the end of the lesson, nair told us that it was her last lesson with us. And the irony and significance of it was, we actually presented her with a flower and surprised her on her last day and surprised ourselves in a way too.

and nair said this in her leaving speech ‘I taught a lot of schools and I always need to shout at them because they are very rowdy, so compared to them, all of you are angels.’ And she said that im talkative but im also very good (: hehe kudos to nair, I think I will miss laughing in chem lesson.

After school had combined UG meeting to take our total defence badges. Grouped with sarah, dhanya, myitzu and yixia to take our td (bronze). After long and boring talk we started on out model. Made a model of an animal cell to represent td, if you want to know how we link it to td you can ask me. And yeah, we passed (:

ELIZABETH CHUA sucks big-time, and I think she already hates me. I cannot stand the way she whines and tries to be so enthu she OVERDO it. during the td thing, she actually whined to me (says peijin ma’am in a sickeningly sweet voice) and told me to get some yellow construction paper for her. HELLO AM I YOUR MAID OR SMTH? Okay so I declined, and she said I was very bad and wants to complain about me etc.

Wtv lor, I think you are seriously deprived of knowledge or something, cos you just havent seen ma’ams that are actually real tigers.

Had a very nice and long stroll around j8 with shaun, xiyun, adrienne, hanyong and kahwei after school, which was our time to catch up with each other. Apparently xiyun enjoys gym now, which I find so ridiculous.

You people slacked and you all know it. but since its Vday, I let go, I forget.

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

yestd was njc science workshop. Me, gloria tan and gloria seng met for lunch at j8 but sarah the retard decided not to go ): anw, so we had mos burger, then headed off to njc on bus 156.
Funny thing is, we almost missed the njc stop if not for sarah. We saw her walking on the brigde and were like OMG STOP. Haha. Anw jerlynn’s mother gave us a very nice lift to njc cos we had to walk a LONG LONG way in (: thankyou lots (:
We did experiments like the dna thing, then gel casting which freaked me out a little cos it was cancer-causing ): after the entire thing gloria seng, gloria tan, jerlynn, sarah and I went off to the nearest polar to grab some food. Ugh I spent alot alot nowadays on food alone ):
Daddy has been having coughs for days so he went to see a doctor but in the end they said he had to go for an x-ray (bad news) but it turned out quite alright I guess (good news).
No ballet until 7 april which is like AGES. Boring life till then…

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Mon. played soccer and OH YEAH im good at goalkeeping (: anyway, choo guy had us for bio, and it was so boring it nearly brought me to dreamland :/ eng persuasive test was GREAT, I wrote 3 and a half pages of stuff.

today was okay in a way lah I guess. Wangli came back with manymnay tales for us but I got to finish nlb reflection and that stinky practice paper for her tom :/ ANOTHER late night.

Anyway, chemistry was funny. Nair got so pissed at me because I kept laughing and she got pissed with sarah because she was revising for chem test instead of listening to nair babble. She called sarah a disobedient girl and went on a HUGE rant about how parents and teachers nag because they care and blah blah blah. Nair-talk is crappy (:

Chem ct was difficult I guess, but im not going to worry that much because well, I don’t want to. Hoho.

History was so boring I tell you, chong guy kept letting us do discussions which are so BORING.

Oh yes, if forgot. I wrote my name for 4x100mand sarah’s name for 100m on sports day (:

V day tom!! People, show the world that love exists! Haha. Anyway, there is also a combined UG meeting in school tom. How irritating, I want to enjoy my Vday and my Wednesday! Note: early dismissal every wed.

The bitch sucks big time, she diaos me like hell. Ugh. What a bitch indeed. She leeches on to people and sucks their blood dry before moving on to another victim. So watch out people, serial leech alert.

Anyway, to THE IRRITATING PERSON, I gave credit where it is due, so dont you get too swollen headed and please remember that I don’t like you to be another dog so STAY AWAY.

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Friday, March 09, 2007

Progress report was given out today. added up my L1R5 and guess what? I had 19 points. Haha I just made the cut for yishun jc, innova and serangoon…

First and foremost, eng. Its the FIRST time ever in my entire life that I had a C5 okay. C5. Then, hcl. Wahh this dont need to say one lah, confirm fail. E8 was not a surprise. Amath was okay, A1, but I could have gotten way higher. Stupid careless mistakes.

Emath was fine, a B4, which is like such a blessing because well, I failed indices real badly. And im alr thanking the heavens that I passed bio. Under those circumstances, I dont even have the motivation to listen to mjt in class. She like has a grudge against me.

Chem was okay, 60 was disappointing though but okay, its nair so im contented I should say. The only thing that im truly happy with is my combined humans. I had 70 while the highest is like 73, so im HAPPY (: history was disappointing too, I was aiming for an A but instead got a B3.

During chem today elim showed us the middle finger. SERIOUSLY?! A TEACHER doing that? She was quite agitated when teaching and suddenly the middle finger thing came up. A lot of people started laughing and she went ‘im sorry if I had used the wrong wtv, symbol, but you have all got to understand that atomic structure blahblah’ and she casually WENT BACK TO LESSON PROPER.

Way lot of things happening in school today, last day of term 1 so everythings a big mad rush. But one thing really made my day. During assembly, our vp was presenting prizes and 2E5 2006 RECEIVED A COMMENDATION LETTER FOR HELPING THE SPCA RAISE FUNDS. It made me think of all those times where we worked hard, and THANKYOU SPCA FOR LETTING US HAVE SOMETHING TO REMIND US OF THOSE TIMES WHERE EVERYTHING WAS JUST SO PURE.

Head prefect nominations came along, and I think I did purposely spoil my vote because, well, I dont wish to vote for any. Its just that I dont wish to be biased because I believe each one can be a capable head prefect.

I dropped my small purple clip at the bus stop today while going home. It is actually something minor, but it holds vague meanings and some memories of the learning journey. Plus, anything that has been with me for long is precious to me. So…ya, its a loss.

Anyway, rc today. many things happening, which…I find im so used. Actually, its…her. And the many things taking place tom. Talentime and all. I dont really want to sing after…all that has happened. Maybe because I find im not valued. Maybe, well, its peoples attitude that bothers me. All I can say is, I wasted my time there.

Holidays have alr started, but I dont look forward to it any more than I did last year. With homework, extra classes, ballet, tuition, workshops, rc and all, I find that holidays are not even holidays at all. Ah the irony.

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Thursday, March 08, 2007

INTERNATIONAL WOMENS DAY AND SPORTS DAY TODAY!

Okay sports day was abit of a scare. I reached clementi stadium only at 7.22am, and throughout the journey my whole entire body was tensed up because I kept thinking weird stuff like ‘what if they lock me out’.

Anyway, rc duty was fine. Yiyi sprained her ankle so had to attend to her. My first real casualty. Haha.

After sports day chewlin, tharshini, sarah, cz, jeanette and me headed to j8 for lunch and ohayo reunion. I went with tharsh and chewlin, but on our way there we met cz and jeanette on bus 52 (: sarah was the loner who took mrt from clementi haha. We went kfc for lunch and saw interesting stuffs.

There was a woman wearing a tshirt with the words ‘last night a condom saved my life’ on it. they all went ‘lame’ when they saw it but I started laughing. Haha. Then there was this group of KCP students who were trying to make a guy and their friend hold hands. I mean, how childish can they get? And that guy is some idiot like that, blindly let people play around with him. Ugh.
I left early and went library to help chewlin return her book. Then headed home.

I hate holidays, because that would mean everything related to school HAS TO BE settled by tom. So teachers stuff EVERY SINGLE THING on tom and then you do not get to see your friends for an entire week and then you have to grapple with piles and piles of holiday homework and all that is in between revision for tests on the first week after hols and cca and whatnot.

Anyway, THANKYOU MY DEAR SARAH FOR YOUR LOLLIPOP! My love your love (:

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

the netball C div finals was okay lah, with a teeny weeny bit of drama in it. we lost 37-12 to IJ, but still, it was a good fight (: anyway, during the B div finals between RGS and IJ, an IJ netballer fell and had to be carried onto a stretcher by non-other than our very own SMSS RCY! Haha.

Got back bio ct 2 yestd and I FAILED SO MISERABLY. 9 over 30 was SUCH A LETDOWN because, well, bio is like my favourite subject. Ahh maybe mjt had something to do with that.

History was not bad I guess, people around me got less than 7, so I shall be thankful even though its only a C6 if you convert it to 100 percent. Anyway I was just calculating all my marks, and if it all goes well I will be able to secure an A2 for hist. YAYY!

I want to know my eng and lit marks! I wont have a good night’s sleep until fri because EFFORT is written all over lit and im just hoping for an A1 for my comb humans. Heard many failed eng, ugghh.

Life has been hectic. Real hectic. Late dismissal, piles of homework, tests and more tests. Amath today was okay but I screwed up identities. Emath was okay but I screwed my my last question. Aaarghh.

Elim exploded during chem today. funny. You should have seen her scream ‘SPLIT UP!’ and us naughties hiding our laughter. HAHAHAAHA.

Andand shirleen, xinmin, sarah and I were all having a good laugh at the back of the class during ss and maybe even amath. We were all trying to act cute (open eyes bigbig, say stuff in squeaky voice etc) and I was annoying sarah by acting like a cute little tubby child (:

Obviously my dear partner was so annoyed she kept saying ‘4 hours without you tom. 4 hours.’ Hahaha sports day doesn’t mean you are free of me HAHAHA. Then I began saying stuff in a sexy voice and a teletubbish voice (:

Ahh got the form for chinese O level alr. Don’t remind me, becos my chinese is REALLY not up to standard. Toodles, off to sleep and dream (:

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Saturday, March 03, 2007

today was a good and bad day lah, in a way.
learning journey yestd. went down to singapore river and had a trail about our diverse history, forefathers and all.

Highlight of the trail was most probably mark zee for eye for a guy. A team of people were filming him and another actress at the singapore river, and when we crowded around him he laughed at us. Haha quite funny really.

Rc was alright. We had captains ball and then some evac lesson. Footdrilled for quite a while before debrief. WAHLAU I knew faiqa ma’am surely will choose me one, and she did. Hmmph.

And, im still wondering how to tell my parents about me failing my hcl test. Gosh. Anyway, I slept at 9 yestd because I was just so tired from all the learning journey and rc. As a result, I missed angels of mission (wanted to watch but couldn’t keep my eyes open), and today I missed the last episode of the invincible duo (hua wuque and xiao yu er). Its not as if im addicted to the tv, but I just find them worthy of watching because their storyline is good (:

I really feel very bitter about it. You people left me out just so blatanly and dont even have the courage to tell me about it. When I avoid it doesnt mean im not commited. How much I want to tell you the truth but…maybe truths are just a cover for us to hide behind, maybe we are all lying, maybe, just maybe, inside we are all broken.

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