Thursday, March 22, 2007
I have come to a point where I have to say everything out.
I hate the people around me. They force me to do things I loathe, they spit out my name without consulting me, they literally…pull me in for everything, everywhere.
I have never said I wanted to do talentime dance. It was ALL your opinion. I never said I was your friend. YOU just assumed I liked your dog-like tagging. I never said I wanted to know about your stupid, child-like obsessions over a certain teacher. YOU kept telling me. YOU are sickening, you correct every single thing I do.
Its only the FIRST week back from cny, but yet I have multiple things thrown straight at my face.
Bio test on osmosis and diffusion was neutral I guess. I dont have a good feeling about it, but as with chem, I am not going to bother about it. osmosis and diffusion was never my strong point, and so im not expecting to do very well.
Somehow, my expectations dont tally with my results. Look at my amaths test. 19 over 25 and all careless mistakes. Ss was good, 13 over 17, the highest being 14.
But I hate myself for not being able to bring myself to show my emath failure to my parents because, well, I had an agreement with them.
Bio project is almost done, we stayed back today to do it and I had to forgo my lunch and SHE still has the cheek to tell me to do it tom and go do talentime dance. And in the midst of doing it, I cant even have some peace and quiet because stupid shitty rc sec twos were crowding around me moaning and whining. Im sorry I have to say this, but juniors these days dont have a shred of respect for their seniors. Sometimes I do wish I was born deaf.
Anyway, I got my cme over and done with today. wangli still isnt here, and she wasted my time memorising the classical texts when I could have been studying for osmosis and diffusion.
Had e lim for chem yestd. Experienced teacher and better than nair. Still, she looks like a cashier from shop and save. Haha.
And im a trifle angry with sarah because she told everyone I went to j8 yestd instead of doing talentime stuff and everyone ended up so angry with me when in fact I DID NOT GO AT ALL.
HEAR THAT? I DID NOT EVER GO TO J8 SO WHY ARE ALL OF YOU ACCUSING ME?
This is why I hate people. They accuse you just like mjt.
fantasised at
8:56 PM
